The title has nothing to do with what my journal is about I just thought that perhaps I'd have something random. (I'm trying to type quietly as to not wake Gordon up since my laptop is in the living room....left on the table where is will overheat but nevermind that)

Anyways

Am I completely deranged enough to be jealous over the fact that Jessa had had sex with her ex?

The answer is Yes...Yes I am

I don't even know why! But the thought of it just makes me so angry and hurt and jealous and it's stupid! Am I that much of a possessive person that I think I have the right to be upset over something I cannot control?

Appearantly I am, but it actually really bugs me ya know?

But I've decided now that I'm just not going to let her ex bug me anymore, wanna know why?

Because I've got her, and she loves me and I love her and I have nothing to be worried about or jealous of or anything.

I'm just being psychotic or something I dunno.

BTW we have CABLE meaning I can watch tv...oddly enough I think I dont care about it until fall when SPN comes back on and then I'll be like HOMG SEASON FIVE *Creams pants*

Anywhoooo that's it for today later pants!

Come Thursday, it's two more weeks until me and Jessa have been together for a month it's insane. Work has been good kinda I'm  needing more hours but bleh I'll see what happens when the schedule goes up on thursday before I talk to my managers. Welfare is being gay and wont return my calls for me to change my appointment and its stressing me out.

I really want to have some extra cash for out one month so we can like go out and celebrate or I can buy her flowers even I just want to be able to show her how much she actually means to me ya know?

*sigh*

Man I need money.

Just hanging around and waiting for the jessa to waken so we can go and get things done today, eating some candy and is just mellow. I'm a little frightened about work, I'm not getting many hours meaning I'm not getting a lot of pay and I dont think i can survive off 150 a week with my rent being 208 a month, plus adding 200 more for food and then essentials for the apartment I'm just like...fucking....failing. Jessa said she's going to help me get onto welfare just until I get more hours at work and everything. I'm quite happy that she's trying to help me, she takes care of me well.

So just a little nervous, I'm trying to get my dad to send me just like 50 bucks it'd help me alot. Argh I hope my shoes wont be anymore than... at least 50 so then I'd have a hundred left over to decide if I want to pay rent or food... sooo stressed. 

Other than the stress life is good. I feel badly though I havent spoken to my rp friends in a month and I think they all are pretty pissed at me *sigh* But I'm sorry guys just been really busy with life I'm trying to make time really. I hate growing up seriously I do.

Later day my friends

So I woke up and I'm all rawr against the world. I think I brooded all night in my sleep about what Jessa told me what Ryan had said about me and her taking a shower together.

He was jealous

Puh-LEASE

Considering he had just come back from sleeping over at his girlfriends house he had absolutely no right to have said anything.

That and he had said that if me and Jessa ever broke up he wanted to see if they could try being a couple again.

Well rawr to you. *Grabs her jessa and holds her protectively* MIne

I'm pretty much just grumbly right now and very possessive.

*sigh*

I dunno I may just be pmsing, or I may just be crazy so bleh.

So as everyone must know by now that I'm dating Jessa (yay!)  I have a job, I have a great apartment with people I can stand to live with, I'm going to be getting the most amazing cat (hopefully he still will be there)  ever life is awesome.

I made porriage yesterday, it was great ^^ I'm so proud of myself and tonight Jessa's making eggy potatoes and cornbeef hash...I am SOOOO excited ^^

Other than being eaten by the buggies I'm okay.

Now, I know y'all are gonna say I'm going too fast for even thinking about this but i'd like to know what your opinion is on these rings I'm thinking of getting Jessa, when I have the money of course. Between the new cat, and the wall scroll I said I was to get her, this is pretty much far off for now.

www.heavenlytreasures.com/r7134.html

www.heavenlytreasures.com/r7133.html

www.heavenlytreasures.com/r7131.html

Those are the three I really like, tell me what you think peoples!

Edit: Because I know Jessa is going to read this, I love you beautiful